How Long...

Has it been since that day?

How much longer is it going to take to forget..

God dammit i just reminded myself of what i despised the most and its leaving this horrible feeling of pain and suffering in me. Its affecting me to my core and i hate it so much.

For once the masochistic side of me quivers in fear as the [pain is unbearable. not even expressing my feeling would help.

Karma is a bitch but dont tell her i said it...
Ramblings aside the emotions that come from reminiscing of lost loves..

aw fuck it ...

i fucking hate this feeling of pain! why the fuck do i have to suffer?


Oh i just LOVE how you send me a message that reaffirms my fate in you. but i know it meant things were to have ended soon..

masochistic tendencies; not physical masochism though..

emotional masochist is what i am. I hate with a passion the suffering you put me through. i was told countless times be my peers to end it but i kept faith even when it would have been best not to...


fuck...

I hate it deeply..

but on the other hand i fucking loved it... sure i felt really sick worrying about you but it helped me create these works of art..

i wonder what went through her head during this fiasco..

It may be twisted to have to go through these things, but sometimes its necessary. Experiences like that can help you grow even if it sucks like hell. :<

this shit may seem like the end of the world now, but you'll look back on it and wonder why you ever gave a shit. nojoke

^

Lolwut? o-o apparently you didnt read the last part...